She Tried

She tried but she couldn’t love me she couldn’t love me she tried   She tried to hide what was bad to share what she had she tried   She tried but no one can give what they don’t receive but she tried   She tried but I didn’t love her I couldn’t love her … Continue reading She Tried

1st Post-COVID Dance

1st Post-COVID Dance

      My American Tribal Style dance troupe suffered a great loss even before the pandemic.  My mother died in 2018.  It took her 24 days to pass, in hospice.  It was the most stressful and odd time in my life: waiting for someone to die, someone with whom so much had not been … Continue reading 1st Post-COVID Dance

You Don't Know What You Don't Know

Annoyingly Profound, Part 2: “You Don’t Know What You Don’t Know”

Throughout my marriage, two of my husband's most-used phrases have driven me crazy.  The first (as in the one which appeared earliest and has been used most often) is "It is what it is."  The second, which appeared only a few years ago, is "You don't know what you don't know" and, oddly enough, this … Continue reading Annoyingly Profound, Part 2: “You Don’t Know What You Don’t Know”

Life on the Outside

Life on the Outside: Getting Back to Normal When You Never Really Were

I bet I'm not the only one. "Normal" is coming back. Here's the problem: I never was "normal"; I never liked "normal"; I was never able to pull off "normal". I haven't missed it, although the way, many ways, it went missing made me angry and distraught. Returning to it is akin to a death … Continue reading Life on the Outside: Getting Back to Normal When You Never Really Were

Looking Up

A Bad Day of Grief

Update to this post:  Before you read this, know that I did get through the day.  And the next and the next and so on.  I know this will happen again.  I had to remind myself that I'm allowed to feel grief and that it will come back at unexpected moments.  It's okay.  I'm still … Continue reading A Bad Day of Grief