Me Shooting Me Blinds

Uh Oh, Fear

I feel it settling into my stomach.  It's a very familiar churning.  I've not had breakfast yet, so it could be that.  But I also feel the little beginning of a pounding in my chest - the beginning of what might be a panic attack, if I still had those (I don't, thanks to an … Continue reading Uh Oh, Fear

Rainy Window

The Sound of Rain

I've missed the sound of rain and what it looks like when it's hitting my windshield and being wiped away and immediately reappearing. It's ironic that, all these years, my brain has never shut off.  It's been so full.  And yet, in answer to that fullness, I stuff it to the brim with news, music, … Continue reading The Sound of Rain

Depressed Woman (Edited)

I Know What You’re Thinking: How I Became a Loner

Response to Pointless Overthinking's Question of the Day – No. 508   "How often do you assume others think bad about you and how do those thoughts look like?"  When I read this prompt, a torrent of emotions flowed into me.  Do I assume others think bad about me?  YES YES A THOUSAND TIMES YES. … Continue reading I Know What You’re Thinking: How I Became a Loner

You Don't Know What You Don't Know

Annoyingly Profound, Part 2: “You Don’t Know What You Don’t Know”

Throughout my marriage, two of my husband's most-used phrases have driven me crazy.  The first (as in the one which appeared earliest and has been used most often) is "It is what it is."  The second, which appeared only a few years ago, is "You don't know what you don't know" and, oddly enough, this … Continue reading Annoyingly Profound, Part 2: “You Don’t Know What You Don’t Know”

Journey

My No-Medication Journey to Emotional Health and Well-Being

Going on about 40 years ago, I was diagnosed as bipolar.  Today, I don't know whether that diagnosis was correct or not because I've chosen to live my life the way I'm going to live it regardless. So in this post, I'm going to talk a little about my choices for medicating and not medicating.  … Continue reading My No-Medication Journey to Emotional Health and Well-Being