Looking Up

A Bad Day of Grief

Update to this post:  Before you read this, know that I did get through the day.  And the next and the next and so on.  I know this will happen again.  I had to remind myself that I'm allowed to feel grief and that it will come back at unexpected moments.  It's okay.  I'm still … Continue reading A Bad Day of Grief

Reading the Bible

Regardless of Your Religion (or Lack of), the Bible is There for You

If you talk to 20 different people in the next hour, I'm sure you will get 20 different definitions of faith, different combinations of faith/doubt, different rationales for belief/not belief.  Regardless of your religion, or lack of, the Bible is there for you. Whether you believe in God or not, you need comfort now, you … Continue reading Regardless of Your Religion (or Lack of), the Bible is There for You

Lacy Reflection in the Powder Room

Unpaid Coronavirus Holiday Art #2

When my grandma was still alive, I used to go and stay at her house sometimes in the summer.  I always slept in her room. Those summer nights, her bedroom was always filled with yellow light from the street lamp but it was filtered through her lace curtains.  I would fall asleep looking at the … Continue reading Unpaid Coronavirus Holiday Art #2

Wedding Rings

Turns Out I Really Am Selfish

The only other truly significant boyfriend I ever had, decades ago - who has had an enormous impact on my life - once told me that I am selfish.  I don't remember my age at the time - I was 16 or 17 perhaps - but I never forgot that.  For some years, I didn't … Continue reading Turns Out I Really Am Selfish

Family Tree Sketch on Scrap Paper

They Hate Me … Because They Love Me

  My family hates me.  And by family, I mean my cousins.  That's really all that's left, my cousins - my mother's brothers' children.  (I have no siblings except for: 1, the one I was hidden from; 2, the half-sister from another mother and her now-deceased brother.  This is a really long story I'm not … Continue reading They Hate Me … Because They Love Me