Fear is a Coward

Fear is a Coward

Funny thing I notice about Fear. He’s big and bad and burly while he’s at home lurking in my what-ifs and what-mights. He pokes at my stomach until I’m nauseous. He pounds on my chest until I can’t breathe. He shakes me and rattles me until I’m dizzy. He yells at me until I’ve relived … Continue reading Fear is a Coward

Me Shooting Me Blinds

Uh Oh, Fear

I feel it settling into my stomach.  It's a very familiar churning.  I've not had breakfast yet, so it could be that.  But I also feel the little beginning of a pounding in my chest - the beginning of what might be a panic attack, if I still had those (I don't, thanks to an … Continue reading Uh Oh, Fear

Flower in Jamaica 2

Unpaid Coronavirus Holiday Art #1

  Well, as long as I'm home I might as well keep working on my goal of becoming an awesome abstract digital art maker.  As of about five minutes ago, I'm now down to 1/6 of my clients.  This will probably last at least through March. I'll use this time to work toward a possible … Continue reading Unpaid Coronavirus Holiday Art #1

Rainy Window

The Sound of Rain

I've missed the sound of rain and what it looks like when it's hitting my windshield and being wiped away and immediately reappearing. It's ironic that, all these years, my brain has never shut off.  It's been so full.  And yet, in answer to that fullness, I stuff it to the brim with news, music, … Continue reading The Sound of Rain

Stuck at Home

Yay. Sort of.

I'm home today, a surprise day off.  I'm home because I'm self-employed and I've lost 2/3 of my clients for the "foreseeable future" because my clients are assisted living communities.  Thank you COVID-19. I just came back from a one-week (very expensive) vacation.  I went to work for a week and now my work has … Continue reading Yay. Sort of.